Arrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

feel so suffocated and unhappy again lately. sick of being all by myself. 6.10am. still cant sleep. sleepin alone in the whole house makes me think alot. keep watchin series to make myself not to think bout anythin. well, drama finished. tried to make myself to fall asleep still cant. hah... cant help cryin at this moment. yea, i always do this - cry myself to sleep at nite lately. yea, im jz too useless. i jz hate all these feelings....!!!!! im scared of being all alone which will make me think alot. my life still sucks like it used to. when i reli feel like confide in someone...i can't even think of who i can call!!!! the frens i used to hav... i dun even know if they stil remember me and care bout me now. . Sometimes i wonder if anythin happen to me also nobody would know... yea, im jz living in my own world. u think i like this???!!! I HATE this alot u know!!!!!!!! what u see can be deceiving, maybe its my bad luck... i cant make ppl around me happy coz im not even a happy person. i still always pretend that im happy in front of ppl but im sick of that... Can i not having to pretend anymore n be reli happy....? Work sucks... my life sucks.. (altho i always believe i can make it beautiful one someday..but when??? ) I'm done with this!!! arggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! Pls set me free n give me back happiness!!!!