Living in a world that no one knows and no one cares..

Really sick of stayin home and sitting in front of my PC all the time.. been laying on my bed, with my laptop on ALL DAY LONG.. but i dunno what is it for? You think i like to FB? NO!!!! I actually HATE it!!!! it's just that i got nothing better to do..... I got nobody to talk to...............Nobody is here listening to me…………..I need to talk to HUMAN.... NOT MY COMPUTER!!!!!!!! I just need to shout.... I just need a shoulder.... I just need someone who's willing to listen to me.... someone who will be there for me always... is it that hard??
at work and at home also face my computer... honestly i get really dizzy and uncomfortable and mentally ill coz i've been doing this for long time.. it's really really unhealthy and it's killing me soon!!!!! 

But i got no choice... computer is my only companion in this house when im alone..  going out? friends? colleagues? they all have their own activities with their friends or GFs/BFs.... who the hell will give a damn bout me - troublesome and pathetic gal who always whine bout the same problem over and over again? People really get sick of me!!!!! Look, i don't want it okay... I'm sick of looking at myself this way too...!!!!!!

You wouldn’t undersand… how miserable I feel… im just such an unlucky girl huh…

People think im a boring person, always look sad, seldom smile on the face.. but they don't understand.... I really really don't want it... i just dunno y...life,stress,all the pain that I've got has turned me this way... i can hardly be happy again....What should I do to stop being sad and depressed????

I feel really suffer... I feel so alone... I feel really scared... i'm so scared that people will get sick of me and leave me one by one... In the end i'll be all by myself.. NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T WANT THIS TO HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M REALLY SO SCARED OF BEING ABANDONED AND LEFT OUT!!!!!!!! I'M REALLY FREAKING SCARED OF BEING ALL ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M GOING CRAZY SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pls don't treat me like a freak or mentally ill person or watever..... I really need your support..............................................

depression..... stress........ phobia.....

I've been so depressed lately... really unhappy.. just feel like things never go my way.. feel soooo tired with my job... i seriously HATE it....im getting tired and sick of it... it's just not MY THING... and it's more like a man's job.... maybe this job is not suitable for me... really really wish to leave now and look for other jobs... wat job is suitable for me? why i always have to stay back till so late and no time for yamcha with frens or meet up with my buddies?? i just feel so envy when i see other gals who can leave office so early and can have their own happy hour after work.. why do i still hav to be haunted by my boss and my works even after work???even when i sleep???!!! CAN YOU PLS STOP HAUNTING ME??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got phobia already........

I already feel sooo loathed of U..........Can u try to put urself into my shoes... for once???? Stop being sooo self-centered and egoistic..........
I just work to live... i dont "live to work" u workaholic!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im still so young why do u have to damage me????????????????? Cant i have my life back???? THIS IS SOOOOOO UNFAIR TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pls stop comparing me with others!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pls stop being so unreasonable!!!!!!!

U have no idea how much pressure u put on me and i have not been happy lately coz of the stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And dun judge me if u dun even understand me............ You cant hurt me like this....................