Damn back luck....!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really cant believe this is happening again....My handphone and wallet were stolen in the exam hall today. i cant believe it!!!!! I lost my handphone 5 times already since i had my first handphone!!!!!!!! All also have been stolen...i cant believe how clumsy and stupid i am...im not really upset bout the lost of my handphone actually, i thought of changing my phone anyway...i just feel soooo frustrated....what's wrong with me????what's wrong with the world??? Why am i sooo damn bad luck everytime??????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!! And i feel soooo scared....coz i always lost my valueble things in my classroom and campus...i really feel so scared,insecure and paranoid.....who would do such thing to me????? why am i always the target??????????(im just so afraid that it could be someone i know and trust...i really hope its not...) why this thing always happen to me???????WHY ME????????WHY ALWAYS ME?????????????????when will it end????????? i cant help thinking bout it.....Im fedup......really fedup........................i dont think i can forgive myself again....im really stupid....im feel so scared now...i really hope what im thinking is not true...now i really lost my faith already.............Im so vulnerable now.....really too much things lately which break me down........i really feel like giving up everything.....im so sick................

Moody...

Moody day again...I think all these things are going to come to the end soon....very soon...after this, im gonna start a new life..i reli hope it will be a good one..i really wanna end all these miseries and sufferings..but i gotta hold on to it now..i feel suffocated all the time...even though i act as if im ok...no!!!! actually IM NOT OK!!!!!!! I think im going crazy at times...i need someone to listen to me...but i just dont know how to tell my problems...i reli envy others who have a good life and have people who really care bout them...i just feel so empty...i dont always express my sadness coz i hate it when people see me sad and i think i'll spoil people's mood.. but..i really feel suffocated...i dont know who can actually understand my feelings..no one...no one...
Hmm..i dont know if i'll still write blogs in the future..i hope i'll write happy things in the future..no more sorrow....yeah.....
To all my friends who care bout me...thank u so much for reading my blogs and getting inside my world...now that u know me...huh.... i appreacite those who care bout me...and believe me...i will NEVER EVER forget any of my friends ok...even though i seldom keep in touch with some...i have reasons for that...and u know im just that kind of girl who feels so hard to express my feelings...
I can't forget my past...memories...u know...it's really really hard to let go........ haih........just hope things will go my way......