My birthday is just over... although it was nothing much, i still feel grateful coz i got u all to keep me company tonite... reli thank you for that.. appreciate all the wishes and blessings...
Honestly I didn't expect much for my birthday.. or i should say i never dare to expect too much after getting let down for so many years.. maybe its very common that the birthday person will get alot of presents n stuffs on her/his birthday... but i never do... i never receive alot of presents on my birthday.. and this year even worse... no present till now.. honestly i reli do hope i can get some presents on my birthday.. atleast they can cheer me up .. well, maybe its too much to ask for....
I've never had that kind of feelings (when gettting presents and surprises) for ages... just kinda disappointed... i know i should not expect anything from people but i just reli wish there's little something to cheer me up.. lol... I'm reli so silly huh?
And I feel a bit disappointed also coz some of my friends and old friends didnt wish on my birthday.. i think they have forgotten since we r all busy with our own lives now...of course i wont blame them (it's not their fault anyway...), im just sad.... why cant i celebrate my birthday with my whole bunch of buddies or maybe special someone every year... with presents, and cakes.. u know..but..... things never work out as i thought.... And.. will my wish come true after i make one..? I never believe in that since many years ago coz it never happened on me..!!!
Why i didnt feel excited at all on my birthday?... it means alot to most of the people, doesnt it???? Why i never deserve to be the queen on my birthday.. only one day... i wanna feel like im special... got people to make me feel special and treasured....
Hmm... maybe im just a nobody la...maybe its my problem... im so insatiable? But i don't think so... hmm..maybe it's not my time... I hope it won't be the same next year.. it will be different... better this will be my last single birthday! LOL...
hah...im crazy....thinking too much...!!!!!
