I had a real bad day today.... feel so sad.... screwed things up in my work..... tried hard but everythin was in vain ...and everyone put the blame on me.. reli feel soooo frustrated and disappointed... sometimes dun even know if im too stupid... i just feel so upset coz nothing ever goes my way all this while.. lots of bad things happened to me... im reli reli such an unlucky gal.....!!! y....?????? y those unhappy things keep on happening on me????????????? cant they go away from me???? leading such a tough and dull life that i already feel sooo numb bout it....just keep on hanging to it....i dunno till when i can endure this pain..
Another thing is that today is my best fren's birthday.. and i didnt even have the time to do anythin for her (atleast get her a present...) coz been so busy and lotsa things on mind lately....damn......................and i was behaving so weird and sad somemore today......feel so sorry.......will make it up to u in future sweetie... sorry... here I wanna wish u a very happy birthday....Hope u stay happy all the time, luck and happiness always with u.......
Actually im sick of whining and complaining on my life.... speechless already... dunno when the bliss will come to me..........................Sometimes I'm wondering how would it be like if i havent had chosen this path in my life... Would it be the same or would I be much happier? I know I could have been a happy gal just like any other gals if all those bad things didnt happen to me... but it keeps coming.... i have no idea y is this so.... sigh........
I just wanna be alone when im down... altho i so feel like talking to someone when im reli down... but im just too scared that my bad emotion will affect my frens..... i dun wanna bother others... i dun want them to see the way i look like when im real down... i reli HATE it.... how i wish i could be happy all the time.....and can talk and laugh sooo freely,loudly and easily............
